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- August 21st, 2009
i have to go to perth i really dont wanna see my boyfriend i love him tho he gets alittle to much for me and something is telling me im not his onli girlfriend... its my mums birthday today witch is good coz she isnt that grumpy witch means im not going to get it today my brother is getting more annoying i wish he would just go back to perth i havent been taking my depression pills i dont want to;.... they make me feell i\like im a nut case and they make me feel worst they make me wanna cut and die my death thoughts have gone down alittle tho when i get really upset and i breake they all come rolling back in when willl they leave me alone
my cousin is still trying to be with me what do i do he my cousin nothing more tho he looks at me as being more then a cousin ...
im worried im falling. im worried that im never going to get out of this that im always going to have this problem i just wish my mum never fucked up my life
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ive had over 4 step dads my real dad got rid of me out me and my mum on the streets ny last step dad neally killed my little sister she got shaken baby sydome mum and me always got abused he tryed sleeping with me but my pop alwas protected now my pop gone and i have no one to protect me i miss him and all i want is him back and i know he not coming back i cant live without him ive tryed to talk to my dad but im nothing to him i just want to met him i just want him to see how much i have grown up... .